Woman Know Your Worth ~ I Wanted Him But He Wasn’t Interested
I was in a mentoring class at Swift Driving School in 2015 and in walks this tall, dark, handsome, and intelligent man.
I said to myself, now this is a man that I could see myself with. The more I learned of him the more I grew
attracted to him. One day I walk into our office and there he was again. We both had the same
driver leader, how convenient it was for me to be able to talk to him when I wanted to.
He said, “if I can find someone to takeover my truck I will team up with you.” Did he just say that? You
mean to tell me that I can have him with me all the time. I am all over it. In less than a week we
were teammates and I was on cloud nine. I imagined being with this man all the time. He’s everything a woman could ask for. He is hard working, dependable, takes care of his kids, single, what else can I say, he’s a perfect catch. I wanted him to see that I was a good catch for him, I wanted him to know that I was everything he needed (at least that’s what I thought). I began pursing him more and more when I knew deep down he should have been pursing me.
I was at his every beck and call, which really was not a big deal because he really took care of everything. This made me want him more. I can see him taking care of me, well so I thought.
After spending time together for a while I began to feel discouraged. I was doing everything I can but he still seemed to not be interested in me. I began thinking, even if he did like me I will have to turn into the woman I was not to make the relationship work. I began feeling useless and my self-esteem was being affected.
I prayed and asked God to show me a sign, I needed to know if he would be the one. We ended up talking and it turned into a huge argument. He raised his voice and cursed at me. I was stunned. After thinking about the situation I knew I could not continue being his teammate. I knew I had devalued myself to allow this man to handle me like this. I took control of it by cutting off all communications including Facebook to rebuild my self-esteem and self-respect. I had to remind myself that I am not that chick. I was so angry at myself.
Lesson learned: As a woman I had to know my worth and my value and not devalue myself to try to fit into no man’s world. Though this good looking man named Chris was perfect in many ways, I realize that he and I would not work out. I was trying to fit myself in his life through my neediness. After 6 months of no communication, we finally restored our friendship in which we are friends to this day. I realized that I played apart in this and I put myself out there. I got my feelings hurt because I offered him something he did not ask for.
Can you look back on a time in your life where there was a similar situation? How did you handle it? Are you bitter because of it? Did you learn from it and if so what did you learn?
Chris have very good qualities of what I want in a man. Those qualities I have listed on my vision board for my perfect man. Thanks Chris for showing me those good qualities, love you.
Article by Keshia Wright ~ Transformation Life Coach